{"id":3900,"date":"2023-07-08T14:39:17","date_gmt":"2023-07-08T12:39:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/?p=3900"},"modified":"2023-07-08T15:18:57","modified_gmt":"2023-07-08T13:18:57","slug":"dienorastis-apie-pabaigos-neturincias-skausmo-iliuzijas-ir-begalines-vilties-pasauli","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/2023\/07\/08\/dienorastis-apie-pabaigos-neturincias-skausmo-iliuzijas-ir-begalines-vilties-pasauli\/","title":{"rendered":"A. Persijanov. Dienora\u0161tis apie pabaigos neturin\u010dias skausmo iliuzijas ir begalin\u0117s vilties pasaul\u012f"},"content":{"rendered":"<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"3900\" class=\"elementor elementor-3900\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-520c39db elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"520c39db\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-97e305\" data-id=\"97e305\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-8a60cc4 elementor-invisible elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"8a60cc4\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-settings=\"{&quot;_animation&quot;:&quot;fadeIn&quot;}\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! 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elementor - v3.12.1 - 02-04-2023 *\/\n.elementor-heading-title{padding:0;margin:0;line-height:1}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title[class*=elementor-size-]>a{color:inherit;font-size:inherit;line-height:inherit}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-small{font-size:15px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-medium{font-size:19px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-large{font-size:29px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xl{font-size:39px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xxl{font-size:59px}<\/style><h1 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Adrian Persijanov<\/h1>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-70fb2cae animated-slow elementor-invisible elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"70fb2cae\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-settings=\"{&quot;_animation&quot;:&quot;fadeIn&quot;}\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h3 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Vilniaus liberalaus jaunimo organizacijos Valdybos narys,\npolitini\u0173 reikal\u0173 koordinatorius<\/h3>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-242f1d5 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"242f1d5\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-9b9ad7b\" data-id=\"9b9ad7b\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-4b79822 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"4b79822\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! 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elementor - v3.12.1 - 02-04-2023 *\/\n.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-stacked .elementor-drop-cap{background-color:#69727d;color:#fff}.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-framed .elementor-drop-cap{color:#69727d;border:3px solid;background-color:transparent}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap{margin-top:8px}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap-letter{width:1em;height:1em}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap{float:left;text-align:center;line-height:1;font-size:50px}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap-letter{display:inline-block}<\/style>\t\t\t\t<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><strong><em>2023 m. liepos 1 d.<\/em><\/strong><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Po 27 dien\u0173 bus mano <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">coming out\u2019o <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">metin\u0117s. Apie k\u0105 a\u0161 m\u0105s\u010diau, kai pra\u0117jo vos m\u0117nuo? Skai\u010diau naujienas apie nu\u0161okusi\u0105 nuo tilto ir \u017euvusi\u0105 dviej\u0173 jaun\u0173 vaikin\u0173 por\u0105 Arm\u0117nijoje ir naktimis verkiau nuo bej\u0117gi\u0161kumo ir nevilties. Kaip jau\u010diau pasaul\u012f tuomet? \u0160itaip:<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">draugai paklausia, apie k\u0105 svajoju. Atrodo, papras\u010diausias klausimas. Atsakau taip pat, primityviai \u2013 \u012fstoti \u012f universitet\u0105, baigti studijas, sukurti s\u0117kming\u0105 politin\u0119 karjer\u0105, palaikyti ry\u0161ius su draugais, sukurti \u0161eim\u0105 su mylimu \u017emogumi\u2026<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Bet i\u0161 tikr\u0173j\u0173, skaitydamas pana\u0161ias naujienas, svajojau b\u016bti nu\u0161autas homofobo radikalo prie naktinio klubo. Buvo viltis, kad gal bent jau tokia tragedija priverst\u0173 \u017emones susim\u0105styti ir pamatyti kurstomos neapykantos problem\u0105. Bent jau tuos, kurie mane \u017eino. \u017dinojo\u2026<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Be abejo, \u0161ios mintys nukeliauja \u012f bedugn\u0119 pas\u0105mon\u0117s \u0161iuk\u0161liad\u0117\u017e\u0119 \u2013 tragi\u0161ka mirtim nieko nepasieksi, tai itin pavojinga iliuzija. Ta\u010diau protas, degantis u\u017euojautoj, atsisako racionalumo pagalbos. Sudega, o tu u\u017emiegi. Kaip tai padarei vakar ir u\u017evakar. Kaip tai padarysi rytoj ir poryt. Gul\u0117damas savo laim\u0117s pelenuose.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>2021 m. spalio 6 d.<\/strong><\/em><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201eS\u016bnus g\u0117jus \u2013 did\u017eiul\u0117 g\u0117da t\u0117vams, jie to nenusipeln\u0117. Kaip apie tai mo\u010diut\u0117ms pasakot?\u201c,\u00a0 \u2013 \u0161ie \u017eod\u017eiai tampa paskutiniu sm\u016bgiu \u0161e\u0161iolikme\u010dio \u0161ird\u017eiai. Kai mama, artimiausias ir mylimiausias nuo pat vaikyst\u0117s \u017emogus, pasako: \u201eB\u016bti g\u0117ju \u2013 did\u017eiausia nuod\u0117m\u0117\u201c, \u2013 atsiranda noras i\u0161nykti t\u0105 pa\u010di\u0105 akimirk\u0105. Vienintelis artimiausias \u017emogus&#8230; Prarastas. Matosi, kad t\u0117vai sujaudinti, mama sulaiko a\u0161aras, ta\u010diau man jau visi\u0161kai abejingos j\u0173 mintys ir jausmai. Jie sako, kad t\u0117vai nepalieka savo vaik\u0173, bet \u201ene\u0161ioti toki\u0105 g\u0117d\u0105 \u2013 tai nepakeliama ir nepelnyta\u201c. Sako, kad nori pad\u0117ti, bet savo \u017eod\u017eiais absoliu\u010diai \u012ftikina, kad jokios emocin\u0117s pagalbos ir palaikymo i\u0161 j\u0173 nebus\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A\u0161 suvokiu, kad jeigu prisipa\u017einsiu t\u0105 akimirk\u0105 \u2013 keiksma\u017eod\u017eiai, galb\u016bt net sm\u016bgis \u012f veid\u0105, a\u0161aros ir nenoras i\u0161klausyti ir suprasti. Pasakau sau, kad tyl\u0117siu iki gyvenimo pabaigos. Jokios li\u016bdnos muzikos ir titr\u0173. Taip paprastai, buiti\u0161kai \u017emon\u0117s i\u0161si\u017eada sav\u0119s. Suvokiu, kad, jei atsiversiu ateityje, visas mano trapus pasaulis \u017elugs be galimyb\u0117s atsigauti. Kelio \u012f ties\u0105 n\u0117ra. Kelio \u012f laim\u0119 n\u0117ra.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Galvoje suskamba k\u0105 tik gimusi aksioma: \u201eA\u0161 negaliu tur\u0117ti meil\u0117s, nuo \u0161iol visiems b\u016bsiu karjeristas, turintis laiko tik darbui. Iki pat gyvenimo pabaigos.\u201c \u0160irdy tu\u0161tuma, joki\u0173 emocij\u0173. Tik v\u0117liau kyla neapsakomas savo t\u0117v\u0173 neatpa\u017einimas ir nesuvokimas. \u0160ie \u017emon\u0117s nepasikeis. Tai a\u0161 pasikeisiu, sukeldamas sau nei\u0161gydom\u0105 skausm\u0105. Tai pabaiga. Mintyse nutolstu nuo t\u0117v\u0173. Pasaul\u012f i\u0161vysta naujas \u017emogus \u2013 \u017emogus, neleid\u017eiantis sau myl\u0117ti kito \u017emogaus.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>2022 m. rugpj\u016b\u010dio 6 d.<\/strong><\/em><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Maniau, pasakysiu mamai va\u017eiuojant \u012f oro uost\u0105. Nesiry\u017eau. Maniau, kad skryd\u017ei\u0173 laukimo sal\u0117je. Nesiry\u017eau. L\u0117ktuve. Nesiry\u017eau. Kiekviena sekund\u0117 buvo persmelkta tik viena mintimi \u2013 \u201eAdrianai. \u012ekv\u0117pk. Ir padaryk tai.\u201c Ir \u0161tai, laukdamas baga\u017eo Antalijoje, a\u0161 i\u0161tariau \u017eod\u017eius, po kuri\u0173 buvo pad\u0117tas ta\u0161kas 17 met\u0173 trukm\u0117s gyvenimo apsakyme:<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Ar prisimeni m\u016bs\u0173 pokalb\u012f spalio m\u0117nes\u012f? A\u0161 tada pamelavau.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Kok\u012f pokalb\u012f?<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Apie mano orientacij\u0105.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Kas su ja negerai?<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Viskas gerai. Tiesiog man patinka vaikinai.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Adrianai, \u2013 ties a\u0161ar\u0173 ribos, skausmingai sukr\u0117sta pasako mama, \u2013 tau reikia ka\u017ek\u0105 daryti. Tai yra nenormalu.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">\u2013 Ne, mama, tai normalu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Per kelias minutes trumpai perpasakojau jai \u017einom\u0173 genetini\u0173 tyrim\u0173 rezultatus, homoseksualumo i\u0161braukim\u0105 i\u0161 psichini\u0173 lig\u0173 PSO registro dar 1980-aisiais, mokslinink\u0173 bendruomen\u0117s konsensus\u0105. Pasakiau, kad net popie\u017eiaus pozicija n\u0117ra tokia jau vienareik\u0161mi\u0161ka (mama yra itin religinga katalik\u0117). Prad\u0117jau kalb\u0117ti apie LGBTQ+ genijus mene, did\u017eias istorines asmenybes. V\u0117liau apie tai kalb\u0117jome vie\u0161butyje. Susitar\u0117me, kad ji papasakos t\u0117vui, kai gr\u012f\u0161ime \u012f Lietuv\u0105. Po \u0161i\u0173 i\u0161gyvenim\u0173 du\u017eau \u012f \u0161ukes.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Po savait\u0117s mama papasakojo t\u0117vui ir tada mano sielos \u0161uk\u0117s tapo stiklo dulk\u0117mis, kuri\u0173 jau nebuvo galima suklijuoti atgal&#8230; O po to? Po to kiekvienas u\u017esidar\u0117 savo ma\u017ey\u010diam pasauly. Mokyklos psicholog\u0117 \u017eino apie mano pastar\u0173j\u0173 11 m\u0117nesi\u0173 gyvenim\u0105 daugiau nei t\u0117vai. Tokia, deja, yra realyb\u0117.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>2022 m. rugpj\u016b\u010dio 8 d.<\/strong><\/em><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Band\u017eiau rasti pagrindin\u012f motyv\u0105 savo apm\u0105stymuose ir jis yra toks \u2013 a\u0161 nenoriu, kad d\u0117l mano veiksm\u0173 giminai\u010diai ir t\u0117vai jaust\u0173 g\u0117d\u0105 ir did\u017eiul\u012f skausm\u0105, bet tuo pa\u010diu metu suprantu, kad jei jie pakeist\u0173 savo pasaul\u0117\u017ei\u016br\u0105, \u0161is sav\u0119s kankinimas momentaliai i\u0161nykt\u0173. Ta\u010diau \u017emogui, po daugiau negu 30 gyvenimo met\u0173, tai neapsakomai sunku. A\u0161 nenoriu niekam sukelti skausmo, bet juk ir ne a\u0161 j\u012f sukeliu&#8230; Tai tiesiog ka\u017ekoks u\u017eburtas ratas, paradoksas. Nemanau, kad pavyks i\u0161silaisvinti nuo kalt\u0117s jausmo. K\u0105 man daryti? Tikriausiai i\u0161va\u017eiuoti ir daugiau niekada j\u0173 nematyti. Bet ar tai \u012fmanoma? Ar a\u0161 to noriu?<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>2022 m. lapkri\u010dio 21 d.<\/strong><\/em><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A\u0161 nei\u0161tes\u0117jau pa\u017eado t\u0117vams ir papasakojau apie savo orientacij\u0105 pusseser\u0117ms. Jos tapo pirmaisiais giminai\u010diais (ir \u0161iuo metu lieka vienintel\u0117mis), kurioms a\u0161 atsiv\u0117riau. J\u0173 palaikymo ne\u012fmanoma apib\u016bdinti \u017eod\u017eiais. A\u0161 pagaliau pri\u0117miau save. \u0160ie jausmai paskatino mane \u012fsigilinti \u012f pla\u010diausi\u0105 LGBTQ+ istorij\u0105. Ir a\u0161 supratau \u2013 antropologija ir genetika m\u016bs\u0173 pus\u0117je, psichologija, vienaip ar kitaip, vis d\u0117lto m\u016bs\u0173 pus\u0117je, istorija m\u016bs\u0173 pus\u0117je, menas ir kult\u016bra m\u016bs\u0173 pus\u0117je. U\u017e barikad\u0173 \u2013 barbari\u0161ka tamsa ir juod\u017eiausi prietarai.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Ir viskas. A\u0161 prad\u0117jau lau\u017eyti barjerus. Pirm\u0105 kart\u0105 nulakavau nagus ir at\u0117jau taip \u012f mokykl\u0105. Prasiv\u0117riau ausis. Pakei\u010diau \u0161ukuosen\u0105. Nusipirkau tuos mar\u0161kinius i\u0161 moter\u0173 skyriaus, kuriais \u017eav\u0117jausi por\u0105 met\u0173. Visa tai nepaisant t\u0117v\u0173 priekai\u0161t\u0173\u2026<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-size: 16px; font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>2023 m. liepos 1 d.<\/strong><\/em><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Na jau ne. Mes nesame problema, kuri\u0105 reikia i\u0161spr\u0119sti. Mes irgi esame \u017emon\u0117s. Mes norime b\u016bti gydytojas, mes norime b\u016bti architektais, mokytojais, verslininkais, politikais, automechanikais, sportininkais, re\u017eisieriais. Tarp m\u016bs\u0173 yra begal\u0117 proting\u0173, gabi\u0173, patrioti\u0161k\u0173, gera\u0161irdi\u0161k\u0173, meni\u0161k\u0173. Pra\u0161au, netramdykyt m\u016bs\u0173 \u0161ird\u017ei\u0173 \u2013 leiskit joms laisvai myl\u0117ti ir kurti. Visi esam tokie skirtingi, visi esam tokie pana\u0161\u016bs ir taip pat norime b\u016bti pripa\u017einti, lygiateisiai visuomen\u0117s nariai.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Taip, gr\u012f\u017e\u0119s namo, a\u0161, tikriausiai, tur\u0117siu valandas truksiant\u012f gin\u010d\u0105 su t\u0117vais. \u201eKoki\u0105 teis\u0119 tu tur\u0117jai? Pa\u017eeminai vis\u0105 gimin\u0119. Ar i\u0161vis pagalvojai, kas nutiks, jei mano draugai pamatys tavo kalb\u0105?\u201c\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u0161 tikr\u0173j\u0173, kas nutiks? Ar tavo \u201etikrieji jaunyst\u0117s draugai\u201c, kaip juos vadini, prad\u0117s \u017eemint <\/span><b><i>tave<\/i><\/b><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, atsisuks, nutrauks bendravim\u0105 d\u0117l to, kad tavo s\u016bnus jau\u010diasi laimingas santykiuose su vaikinu? Prie\u0161 ra\u0161ydamas kalb\u0105, paklausiau sav\u0119s: \u201eAr \u0161is gin\u010das vertas i\u0161sakyt\u0173 \u017eod\u017ei\u0173?\u201c O taip, tikrai taip.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Atsis\u0117du \u0161alia sav\u0119s, spalio m\u0117nesio nakt\u012f tyliai verkian\u010dio \u012f pagalv\u0119. Ir pasakau: \u201eA\u0161 irgi turiu svajon\u0119.\u201c \u0160iandien a\u0161 svajoju, kad kada nors ateis diena, kai mano mama man\u0119s paklaus: \u201eAdrianai, o koks tavo vaikino vardas? B\u016bt\u0173 labai \u012fdomu susipa\u017einti.\u201c Diena, kai t\u0117vas pasakys: \u201eGal j\u016bs nor\u0117tum\u0117t praleisti laik\u0105 dviese, mes pri\u017ei\u016br\u0117sim vaikus su senele.\u201c<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Lietuvos liberalus jaunimas tiki, kad ateis diena, kai kai kurie Daukanto aik\u0161t\u0117s 3 ir Gedimino prospekto 53 rezidentai suvoks, kad, \u017einoma, lengva \u017eaisti jaun\u0173 \u017emoni\u0173 gyvenimais, jausmais, j\u0173 ateitimi, ta\u010diau vis d\u0117lto joks rinkiminis \u0161\u016bkis n\u0117ra vertas potenciali\u0173 \u0161\u016bvi\u0173 prie naktinio klubo ir su\u017elugdyt\u0173 gyvenim\u0173.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-99fcfa6 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"99fcfa6\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-46e4f6d\" data-id=\"46e4f6d\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-96da227 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"96da227\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Adrian Persijanov Vilniaus liberalaus jaunimo organizacijos Valdybos narys, politini\u0173 reikal\u0173 koordinatorius 2023 m. liepos 1 d. Po 27 dien\u0173 bus mano coming out\u2019o metin\u0117s. Apie k\u0105 a\u0161 m\u0105s\u010diau, kai pra\u0117jo vos m\u0117nuo? Skai\u010diau naujienas apie nu\u0161okusi\u0105 nuo tilto ir \u017euvusi\u0105 dviej\u0173 jaun\u0173 vaikin\u0173 por\u0105 Arm\u0117nijoje ir naktimis verkiau nuo bej\u0117gi\u0161kumo ir nevilties. Kaip jau\u010diau pasaul\u012f [&hellip;]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3919,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"elementor_theme","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3900","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized","entry","has-media"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3900","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3900"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3900\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3920,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3900\/revisions\/3920"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3919"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3900"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3900"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/laisve.lt\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3900"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}